And i shall not speak

My words

don't speak what

my mind says

The rational & caring words

turn

Irrational and hard

And i am left

to deal the blow

and deal with the blow returned

And you don't stand by me

but leave me alone

with your rational, conditional love

You judge & weigh

And do the "right" thing

rather than the blind one

I am the Duryodhana

With no Dhritarashtra

to love me back

So now I shall not speak

I will let things happen

I shall not be the villain

anymore

I shall not die blow by blow

I relinquish my throne

to you and everyone