Blessed me...

In love,
this world is a blur,
our moment is longer,
while hours slip by...
That moment,
when the tips of your fingers
brushed against mine
and sent a shiver up my spine...


You moved,
your face an inch closer
an inch away from mine
letting our breath do all the talk...
And smiled,
through your deep stormy eyes
i could see no more
till there was nothing more to hide...


With you,
i know of no other
i feel no other
it is just you and me...
This world,
is just a habit to follow and be a part of
while I am a part of you and you of mine
in our parallel universe...


It is here,
we meet and share our soul
intertwined within our arms and feet
and let it break free from the shackles
Of rituals,
of fake love, faker relationships
and become a moment
that lasts an eternity...

Friendship and Love

It took me some time to get my thoughts together on this, although the feeling has been around for a while. Yesterday when S spoke with me on her birthday, she put it in a very straight forward way when she said, "You are the only person I know who has not changed her priorities of people in her life after marriage. It does not revolve around that ONE man alone."

I was happy at least one more person has felt the change in relationships as I have. People fall in love and the entire world is only that one person. They are ready to change everything and everyone in their lives according to that one person. It is not like I am not in love with the man in my life, but I am in love with my friends as well.

9 years of friendship, sometimes decades of friendship, sometimes the deepest of friendship I have ever had in my conscious life just disappeared. And to say the least, I have felt cheated.
It is easier with a love relationship to say break up, but how do you "un-friend" someone. Especially when you have invested so much time, effort, emotions, love, trust everything to it. For me friendship is way higher than love. And when it comes to me, I have always been the one to call, always been the one to be there for every important occasion and the worst days. I have overlooked flaws, but how can I overlook being relegated to a mere name in the facebook or phonebook?

And for long, I carried on holding them the way they were for me earlier. Giving my 200%, only to realise I am an outsider in their lives and have no rights over them. My intentions was love and concern, but was termed something else. I became manipulative, fake, different coz I spoke the truth and said what I felt, like always.


I was hurt. And like I read somewhere very recently: Sometimes it sucks to be strong, because when people know that you are strong, they think it is okay to hurt you again and again. And I had nowhere to go, coz you don't bitch about friends. That's like breaking the ultimate law.

And then A spoke with me. He said it simply - you are overlooking the people who are there for the people who have left you, who don't even know what you are going through and more importantly don't even care to find out.  Before loving them, love yourself. They are living their lives, while you have stopped living yours for them.

I always thought friendships are forever, but they are not. People who end up sucking the last ounce of happiness from me, the door is that way. I kept giving chances, but well you are not worth another chance. I wish you all happiness in your life, but my values, my dreams, my life will not have trash from you. 

Now I am free from you.