Unborn

i thought of you
and let my heart wander
where i had you
cradled, in the curve
of my arms...

You were tiny,
tiny lips, tiny eyes
tiny fingers around my thumb
tiny feet pushing my belly
your tiniest smile lit my world.

But no longer
can i let myself wander
and dream of you;
my mind drowns my heart
and makes it surrender

i close my eyes 
but now no longer
do i see anything but darkness
which now is my life, 
forever and ever.