Choking on you...

How do i explain how i feel?

i feel...
like i am drowning in the deep deep sea
far away from the shore
with no hands to pull me back,
back to the shore...

i feel...
the sting of my burning soles
as if they were walking on coals of fire
with the stench of my burnt flesh
all pervading the air
and i can't breathe...

i feel...
the pricks of innumerable
invisible, everlasting needles
hurting the insides of my soul
and i can't cry
or utter a word...

i feel...
the shame of a slave
all tied up
and nothing and no one
to save it from the shame
not even death
the elusive escape...