Not in Love...

No baby, i am not in love
love is too trite, common place
i am in need of you
part of a never ending chase
of who needs whom more...

Sometimes, just your face
makes up for the lost time
of distance, travel and busy days
But then again, it is a crime
to not hold you in a never-ending embrace...

No darling, i am not in love
how can i be in love
when i know you are forever
another's, one i can't shove
and have me instead of her...

Sometimes, i feel rejected
like some old teddy bear
which makes you laugh
but you never notice the tear
hidden behind those unblinking eyes...

No sweetheart, i am not in love
love does not make you lose
your self respect, and all the control
that stopped the world to use
and make you dependent on one soul

Sometimes, when you use me
i feel like the coveted one
i devour the moment and relive it
again and again, like a special one
only to continue the pretense...

No baby, i am not in love
'cause if i accepted that
i would fail to understand
how i have allowed all that
and still be in love with you...